to myself

december.11.2000

I'm saying it right now,
and dreaming of your face.
Nothing else can move me,
no other can replace.

My mouth is not moving,
but I'm saying so much now.
To myself I must confine,
to myself I wonder how.

Good enough for no one,
the truth that hurts so bad.
Always missing you,
It makes me feel so sad.

How much longer can I take,
this longing I can't fill?
I wish I felt nothing at all,
and my heart I could just kill.

I don't want to tell you,
and you don't want to hear.
All the things I feel for you,
all that brings me fear.

Forget all that I've said,
disregard me in all ways.
To myself I'll have to be,
to myself in my old days.